Moving to Indianapolis...

I can't believe it's almost here. I have threeish weeks till I move down to Indianapolis with Andy and I cannot wait. I am excited and scared but main ecstatic to be moving on my own (well semi-on-my-own.) So many things to do and so much to pack. Life is moving fast but I am going to move with it or else get stuck behind. Thank you Lord for being by my side through these past couple of months.

"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing."

The Spark I was missing

I guess the past is always going to come glaring back in your face at times. And there are always going to be wishes and regrets, but I found the spark I have been missing since I got into AMDA and I am going to go for my dreams no matter what it takes. I am going to step out on more ledges and try to get myself out there. I know that God know's what He's doing. I just need to trust in Him totally and then I will be in His will for my life. So, in the words of Little Women the musical..."Here I go, and there's no turning back. My great adventure has begun! I may be small, but I've got giant plans; to shine as brightly as the sun! I will blaze until I find my time and place. I will be fearless, surrendering modesty and grace. I will not disappear without a trace. I'll shout and start a riot, be anything but quiet, like Christopher Columbus I'll be astonishing, astonishing...astonishing at last!"

Life....where is mine headed?

Over the past couple of months I have been working at Chick Fil A, doing community theater shows, auditioning for schools, and searching for the school for me. It seems like all of these doors keep being opened to theater and none of them have led anywhere. I am trying to trust that God has a plan for my life. I just feel like my life is at a standstill right now as I live with my parents. I am completely thankful that they are letting my live with them, I just need God to help me find some meaning with my life right now.

I suppose everyone feels like this at some point in their life. I guess I'm just getting it now.

Thinking...

It normally gets me into trouble. I always overanalyze every situation. I can never be content. And it normally ends up ruining any chances at relationships. I honestly can't do long distance because I can't tell what a person is trying to say and the right emphasis or emotion through text. And so I always worry. I don't know. Maybe it just means I should stop trying and let things go. I feel so close to finding the right thing though. I don't know, maybe I'm just too hopeful.

What a day! :)

So today was my first day working at Giant Eagle, and I gotta say, I love it! It was a blast being able to connect with the kids/joke with them/hopefully teach them something. It's amazing to watch their minds work when you ask them questions. Some of these kids were sharp as tacks. I look forward to another awesome day watching kids tomorrow. :)

So In Love

Strange, dear, but true, dear,
When I'm close to you, dear,
The stars fill the sky,
So in love with you am I.
Even without you 
My arms fold about you.
You know, darling why,
So in love with you am I.
In love with the night mysterious
The night when you first were there.
In love with my joy delirious
When I knew that you might care.
So taunt me and hurt me,
Deceive me, desert me,
I'm yours 'til I die,
So in love,
So in love,
So in love with you, my love, am I.

So taunt me and hurt me,
Deceive me, desert me,
I'm yours 'til I die,
So in love,
So in love,
So in love with you, my love, am I.

Love Never Dies

"Who knows when love begins? Who knows what makes it start? One day it's simply there; alive inside your heart...It slips into your thoughts, it infiltrates your soul, it takes you by surprise then seizes full control. Try to deny it and try to protest, but love won't let you go once you've been possessed." 
~"Love Never Dies" (Love Never Dies the musical)